always.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

The rocking teachers
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!! I woke up at around 0100hrs. I feel that my sleeping hours has been subsidising lately. Ate the leftover egg prata. When I was about to get started with the teacher's day gift, my tummy was struck by the sting once again. The agony was so unbearable. I was already on the verge of tears. I took some pills to ease the pain. My mom concocted this solution; lemon plus salt. She told me that it would somehow decrease the pain. So, I drank till the last drop. It did work but only for a while. My class decided to give something to Mr Poh. Representing the whole class, I designed some stuffs on a big canvas board. In school, the first event of the day was the Bhangrarobic (aces day). Then, head back to class. We did a worksheet about abusing teachers. Mdm Kaur went off. We played musical chairs. It was ohh so fun and exciting. The last time I played that, was when I was in primary three and I was the champion. Haha! Muhaimin was the winner when we first played it. At 1030hrs, headed to the hall for a concert. It was quite boring. The only most entertaining part was when Ariffin's younger brother's band performed a song by PeterPan and the Artic Monkeys. Many ex-students came back this time. The class party was delayed. The class party didn't seem like a party at all until Mr Poh came along with his carefree attitude. He brought life to the party. There were pizzas, noodles, currypuffs,cakes and such. After that, we all gathered and played musical chairs again but this time it's with the teachers. Students from other classes just looked from either outside or from the front or backdoor. Mdm Kaur was the first teacher to be eliminated, then Mdm Wong. Mr Poh was the last man standing. He made it to the final three. Aisah was the champion. Went home with Aisah, kaisah and Zakiah. We played a dumb game on the way. Whenever any of us shouted "stop", we all had to freeze and spontaneously make some candid poses. Stupid but fun.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

During history lesson, Mdm Louis talked about her visit to Germany about 15 years ago, how she and her sister came across the Dachau Concentration Camp and the condition of the place. It was quite fascinating. It wasn't exactly a tourist attraction but tourists are allowed to visit though. Many were killed back then. Even the innocents. All of us were like gaping with disbelief when Mdm Louis told us what happened during those times. Jews, those who were born with mixed blood and non-German people were brutally put to sleep. Some were stripped naked and shot. Others (mostly the weak ones) were sent to the gas chamber since they're considered useless. Many were used as guinea pigs by the scientists to create various heartless experiments which includes pregnant ladies or even their unborn child. In order to get rid of the all corpses, the Nazis built a number of huge "ovens" to cremate the bodies. It's so tragic.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Went to the Woodlands library with sweets. It was crowded so we sat somewhere in that building (outside the library) but then the security told us to go. We headed inside the library and tried to find a spot. Managed to get a spot but the surrounding wasn't exactly serene. There's this group of typical malays nearby. One word which best describe them; vexatious. I had difficulty absorbing those tests for anions and cations and tomorrow's my Prelim exams for science practical. To ease my mind, I drew a girl (only the head) being hung with a rope tied on an old tree; bleeding. I dedicated this sketch for the typical malays who were making so much noise *wink*. Sweets bought a hotdog and off we went to Crescent Park. We settled down at one corner. I became restless because I was trying my best to endure the pain in my stomach. I felt my stomach imploding from inside. I didn't tell sweets about it because I didn't want to make any fuss or anything. It began to drizzle so we went off. While walking, heavy droplets from the sky dropped upon us. I didn't accompany him till the bus came. At that point of time, I really couldn't bear the pain. It was stinging. Felt as though someone was stabbing me in the stomach with a dagger. Had my shower and some food. My parents forced me to drink this yucky ginger flavoured water which is supposingly to ease the pain. I got scolded for refusing to drink it..sigh.

Friday, August 25, 2006

I'm feeling rather depressed today. I feel like listening to Daniel Powter's Bad Day. I feel like going for the extreme bungy jump. I feel like diving into the deep blue ocean of the Pacific. I feel like exploring on my own. I feel like screaming my lungs out in the middle of a soccer field. I feel like being alone. Anyway, some of the Express stream students suggested to the Principal that it would be beneficial if the school is opened till late evening. After much deliberation, they finally came to the conclusion of granting what the students requested. From next week onwards, the school would be opened till 9pm. Many including me, signed the list which meant that we agree to it. During english lesson, Mr Poh said a lot of things which really made us to ponder over. He's one of the teachers who objected to the night classes. Mr Poh feels that this was a problem. He feels that the students might not be able to balance other subjects with time. The night classes only caters to Mathematics and Science. Actually, we thought that the night classes includes all the other subjects. That was why many of us signed up for it. I was in a state of confusion. Mr Poh's words was pretty rational to me. I kept pondering over it even during the lesson after that which was history. Mdm Louis asked me infront of the whole history students whether I was alright. She said that I looked pretty disturbed. I said I was fine. I really appreciate her concern though.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

My English O' Level oral was yesterday. It was okay I guess. Today's the rest of my clan's turn. Aisah's pretty nervous so I kept on reminding her to chill. I'm sure that she'll do well. Anyway, school was normal. Amirul tried to influence Yufang and me into skipping the afternoon class. But, it didn't work..hah. He said that the rest of our classmates are not going. Then, I saw Ariffin.

Me: Hey, I thought you're not coming?
Fin: What!? Who says?
Me: Umm..Amirul..
Fin: Don't trust him. I didn't say I wasn't coming..

Walked all the way to the Bubble Tea stall with Alan, Ariffin and Amirul. Actually, it was supposed to be just me, Alan and Ariffin but then, Amirul joined. From Ariffin's facial expression, it was crystal clear that he didn't want Amirul to join us. He pushed me and his eyes signalled towards Amirul. Along the sidewalk, I pushed him back. He gave me that "who-invited-Amirul" look. It was sorta awkward when Amirul's around. We find him rather irritating most of the time. And it really disturbs me when he plays with sweet's name. After we bought our bubble tea, we decided to cross the road without using the traffic light. Amirul crossed alone, that leaves the three of us. Everytime we tried to cross, there's always a vehicle. So we were like crossing half way then turned back for several times. It was awfully silly of us. I think the people at the bus stop must've thought that they we're some kind of idiots..hahah.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

I took a cab to school this morning and now I'm broke. P.E was hilarious and super fun. Boys vs girls in a fine game of captain ball. Majority of the girls didn't want to be mixed and insists on sticking to the all girls group. I objected but there's nothing I could do because majority wins. The girls didn't even score a single goal. Ariff got another three boys to defend me. Bloody cheesecake (they're all very tall). But I'd have to say that it was so much fun. Those who does not retake the O'Level Mother Tongue, stayed in the library while the rest of us did an exercise to keep our engines going eventhough it's sorta rusty. Right after school, there's Lunchbox. A bunch of teachers performed including my malay teacher and that simply adorable physics teacher! Okay,stop it lahh. My malay teacher played the electric guitar while that physics teacher played the drums and he was sooo awesome! Hah. I was melting like a lighted candle wax when he started to hit the drums. I just found out what his name was. It's Mr Hendry. His full name is Hendryawan if I'm not wrong. Stylo milo. But darling's full name is more stylo milo polo..heh.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Went to school late with an irritating eye and a slightly swollen toe. I can't walk properly today. On the way to school, saw an accident. There were policemen, a black car and a dead body with long trails of blood. The dead body was covered with white cloth but one of his/her leg could be seen. The skin seemed fair..I assume that he/she is a chinese. I didn't stop at the usual bus stop but instead, I turned one whole round. Took my own sweet time. Had to report to the office and was received a late slip. I didn't overslept. I was late because I was doing my art for paper 1. Mr Chongium was absent. The new physics teacher became our relief teacher. He's ohh so adorable and he's about my height..hehe. With that cute hairstyle of his, those silver spectacle and the way he walks..heh. So adorable. I'm not sure why but whenever I saw him..I'll smile..hah. Oh yeah, there's been a few deaths these days. Yesterday, Umairah's neighbour died. Today, my school librarian's father died and that includes the stranger which I saw on the road while I was in the bus.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Waking up in the morning was such a drag. Gave Aisah and Ariffin a wake up call each. I went to school alone because Aisah wasn't ready yet. Brought some peanut sandwiches and shared it with the rest of the people in the room. Took pictures in the artroom using Khairil's cool digital camera. I'll put up the pictures some other day. Zakiah just can't get her hands off me. She loves to paint parts of my body. So, I painted her hair without her noticing it..hah. Finally, I've completed my painting and so did Aisah. We went off at 1100hrs. Walked to block 23 and bought some yummy currypuffs and a lollipop..heh. Then, we stopped by a stall and bought ourselves an ice-blended each. Saw the bus that had just arrived at the bus stop. We ran after it but then Aisah's coins dropped. We picked them up and continued running. By the time we got to the bus stop, the bus went away..sigh.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Mdm Louis was absent. I spent the free period doing graphs. Hilma and Umairah helped me. I really appreciate their help because I really have difficulties in doing it that caused me to weep; at home not in school. Almost everyone was excited to know their mother tongue results. Aisah and I planned to check for our results after school. By recess time, many gathered around the foyer to check for their results. Aisah and I chilled at our usual hot spot. We could hear the sounds of people screaming either for joy or the opposite of joy from the foyer. That made us more nervous. When we got back to class, Mdm Kaur asked us, what grades we've got. We told her that we haven't looked at the results yet but she wasn't convinced. Then, Hilma gestured the number 3 sign with her hand to Mdm Kaur. Aisah and I were like wtf. So, we already knew what we got before even checking it out ourselves. Thanks Hilma for ruining it. So, Aisah and I got B3. Majority got B3s. Only Firdaus and Kaisah got distinction. It was so unexpected that Firdaus has got himself an A1. Congratulations, I hate you. I'm kidding.. Congrats to Kaisah and Firdaus. From that moment onwards, I couldn't concentrate in class. A lot of things were running through my mind. Should I retake or should I not? Will my other subjects be affected if I were to retake? Is there any guarantee that I could get a better result in my second attempt? I told Mr Poh that I needed to go to the lavatory during his after school english lesson. But instead of going to the lavatory, I went to the school back gate and waited for my darling, Azi. A few minutes later, he arrived. I passed him the lolly that I got for him and we chatted for a bit. His new haircut is ohh so rad and cuteeeee. It looks more tidy..haha.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

I'm in such a mess. I have no one to blame but myself for ruining my own life. Fuck, I hate maths. I really really do. I'm desperate and I really need help. I need someone who's sincere and patient enough to guide me..

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

I can't take the stairs because my right thigh had a sudden cramp. I was late again today. Aisah missed the bus while waiting for me. I lovee her shirt. It had a bleeding heart on the top left corner, a manipulated tree at the bottom and there's more design at the back. I didn't design the back of my shirt. I did a tree at the bottom corner, splashed and just merely painted a white portion with a round eye on it. The eye's interlinked with some twisted lines which somewhat is attached to the tree. There's a meaning behind my design. The tree portrays, that almost everywhere in Singapore, it could be found. Plus, Singapore is known to be Clean and Green. The eye represents one of the good governance's policy; being forward looking. Having the vision towards the future and aspire. Every class was supposed to select one representative for the best t-shirt design competition. Actually, I was chosen but when Mdm Kaur asked me what's the significant of my shirt, I just told her that it doesn't have anything to do with Singapore. If selected, I would have to stand infront of the whole school and be judged by the judges. So, lucky Umairah was chosen instead..hahah. Miss Yong liked my shirt but she actually mistaken the eye for an octopus..sigh. Nonetheless, I fancied hers. It's just splats of white paint with badges of "I love Singapore". It's simple but I find it cool. Anyway, Umairah wanted to buy my shirt but I refused to sell it to her or anyone for that matters. The overall celebration was pretty overwhelming. Even the teachers joined in the fun. Creating waves and dancing to the beat. I have to say that National Day Celebration 06' is one of the most greatest event in the school. After that, Aisah and I watched The Lake House. Starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock..wee! The movie was ohh so romantic and sweet.

Monday, August 07, 2006

I didn't want to miss the bus so I took the stairs instead of the elevator. When I got to the 4th or 3rd storey, the bus came. My eyes widened upon the arrival of the bus. I got down the stairs as fast as I could; practically flying and leaving a stomp on each storey. I chased after the bus as though I was running away from a mad dog. Furthermore, my hair was a total mess and I had to run and carry the mounting boards along. In the bus, I was panting. It was quite mortifying really. During assembly, Mr Poh had invited some people from the Arts Academy. All of the performers were indians. The speaker was cute. He had this innocent and calm look on his face with white facial hair around his chin. Plus, he was a bit chubby and he had this typical indian accent..hah. The whole act was about the Sang Nila Utama's story. There were three musicans at the back playing the ancient indian instruments while there were other two more people whose supposingly to be the main characters. They wore these hideous and ghastly looking mask and weird looking costumes. I didn't know that Aisah's afraid of those types of masks. For once, I felt a lot more braver than her. The music they played,produced an unearthly sound. The lyrics were in malay but the melody however, sounded exactly like those usual indian music. The two main characters were in the front part of the stage. They portrayed what they tried to express in a form of a dance. Even the way they dance was sort of frightful to me. Out of the sudden, there was a commotion. It came from the lower secondary. There's this girl, she was closing her ears as firmly as she could and she was shrilling with tears rolling down her cheeks. The teachers brought her down..probably to the staffroom. Everyone was appalled by what had just happened. You know it's funny..I just spoke to sweets over the phone about "this" yesterday night. After that, more girls started to cry and moved away from the hall. In total, there were about five of them. Surprisingly, all of the girls were malays. How strange was that?? Anyway, the act was stopped by the DM. So,we didn't get to see the ending.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Went up to the art room to check up on our classmates. Aisah and I were extra early today. At 0900hrs, we waited for Mdm Wong outside the classroom because it was locked. Then, she came..carrying a plastic bag. All of us assumed that the plastic bag is filled with hot steamy currypuffs because she promised to buy us some currypuffs yesterday. But then, there was none. She couldn't find any halal currypuffs near her area so she bought some snacks like twisties instead. Actually, all of us were so looking forward to the currypuffs because we haven't had any breakfast yet. At around 1100hrs, we had our break. Went up to the art room again then when back to our class. The boys were nowhere in sight and so was Mdm Wong. Ariff came into the class and told us that there's free food at the canteen. We thought that he was kidding because he usually trick us. When we looked downstairs, we saw some of the boys carrying paper plates of nasi lemak. Then, we all went down to get it. Bumped into Sulaime..he told us that they had already took for us. So, we went back upstairs and ate our nasi lemak. We were like..waarrhhh because we're so hungry, we didn't get our currypuffs but we got nasi lemak instead. Best eh..best ehh..? Haha. We did our work and went home. However, Aisah and I felt like eating ice-cream, so we went to 711 at Woodlands Mart and bought Mr Softee. It's nice to eat ice-cream on a hot day. The feeling was just so heavenly wonderful with every lick of the ice-cream that only made me think of happy thoughts.

Didn't go to school because I was too cool. Okay, karot-marot. I was actually too tired, I failed to finish my summary book plus I was still feeling a little woozy. Anyway, I met Aisah at the bus stop and passed her my history assignment including the cheese sandwiches that I've prepared for her because I knew that she'll skip her breakfast. I had my breakfast, swallowed a pill of paracetamol and dozed off when I got home. Woke up at around 2pm after that..heh.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Mdm Kaur saw red when she got back to class. Before she left, she told us to be silent and continue with our work. Actually, the class wasn't that noisy to me. Nobody was shouting, yelling or such. Only the merest whisper could be detected. And because of that, everyone had to stand like such fools. Mdm Kaur made Hilma cry. She thought that Hilma was one of those who were "talking". I find that within these few days, Mdm Kaur has been very temperamental. Almost everyone is starting to hate her. Sigh. For P.E, we played soccer. Actually, I wanted to play floorball but majority wanted to play soccer. I became the defender for my team; helping Suvitha more or less to get the ball away from the goal area. I unintentionally injured six people. I kicked the ball hard enough and it hits either their head, face, ass, knee, thigh or back. The most apology goes out to Zakiah because I wanted to kick the ball towards the boys but it hit her instead, on the face. Luckily, it didn't hit her spectacle sia. Her right cheek was as red as though she was wearing blusher. The boys laughed at her and extolled me. Now I feel twice as bad. I don't know why the boys love to get on Zakiah's nerves. Kesian die. After school, I got a bit dizzy but it was still bearable unlike yesterday. I got headache and barfed in school yesterday. My dad said that I was lacking of sleep. I took two pills of painkiller and slept till the next day. I can't even think properly and do the trigonometry/graphs yesterday. I just copied Aisah's work and the solutions on the board then handed in. While on the way to the bus stop just now, Aisah and I missed the bus. Ariffin laughed at us like someone who's sick in the head.