always.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

So far, I'm doing quite fine. I had myself focused on school assignments to keep myself occupied. Like what Jamilah told me to. Anyway, I did get to talk to Azi in the morning for a short while and we get to sms each other throughout the day/night. I guess, it's not as bad as I thought it would be.

Friday, January 30, 2009

I skipped today's drawing class. The reason; I'm still sick or at least I made myself believe that so I don't feel guilty for skipping school. Hah. Actually, I don't feel like going to school because I wanted to spend more time with Azi. And he, skipped Friday prayers just to hangout with me. HEEEEEH. He came over for a while, chillaxed then we ate at KFC. He sent me home. We met again at night under his block because we were to exchange stuffs. Besides, I planned to surprise him by telling him that I wanted to send him off at the airport. When I told him that I insisted to send him off, he gave me alot of excuses like.. it'll be troublesome for me, the taxi fare is expensive, I'll reach home very late and whatnot. Wth. I wept because there I was, under his block, all dressed up and he gave me the impression that he doesn't want me to go to the airport. I almost walked away when he finally pujuk me. His parents and sister followed too. When we reached the airport, Azi and I searched for MacD but we sorta got lost. So, I called for a help line, which was Jana-FLGG and asked her where it was. Then, we had a minor argument about the burger; which was stupid now that I thought about it. But, everything was cool (: I met some of Azi's buddies. When it was time for the departure, his mom cried. I was surprised that I didn't cry. I wanted to hug him but I don't think it'd be a good idea to do that infront of his parents. HAH. Ouh yeah, his parents told me to take the cab with them. I had to follow them. Before finding a taxi stand, they went to the loo. I waited outside and tears rolled down my cheeks all of the sudden. I wiped my face before they got out. I didnt want them to see me crying. But, I continued crying in the taxi. I didn't wiped my tears because if I wipe, they'll surely know that I was crying. They sent me home first and I wept again...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Lately, I've been spending alot of time with armyboy. We tried to squeeze in as much time as we could for each other *smiley face* And yesterday, the clan booked a pit at Pasir Ris Park and all of our boyfriends were invited. It was really really really fun. We played card games, some physical challenge; all the girlfriends were to piggyback the boyfriends for two minutes and the boyfriends were to piggyback the girlfriends and race around the pit. Armyboy and I managed to escape from the rest at certain times and have some time to ourselves. HEHEHE.

Damn Friday.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Incredibly Awesome.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Yesterday, I slept at 0900hrs to almost midnight. Azi, gave me a wake up call. Chatted for a while and I got started with my homework(cave art) till it was time for me to go to school. I was pretty nervous to present my work in class because I dislike that lecturer. I have my reasons -_-"

However, everything turned out quite well and I was delighted that she approved of my artwork. The only thing I hafta do is to upsize it to an A2 size. Oh well..

Thursday, January 22, 2009

I'm so worn out.. been having insufficient sleep. I can't wait for the public holiday. Had sculpting class just now at N.I.E. I thought it was alright.. On the way to the bus stop, we (krackkitties) saw a troop of army across the road. I sighed and walked a little faster than the rest. The sight of them, made me think of MY armyboy and how much I missed him.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

imya.

Monday, January 19, 2009

One of my dreams came true yesterday. Armyboy fetched me from school since he doesn't have to go to camp on Sunday. My girlfriends were pretty psyched to meet him in person. All this while, they have only seen his picture. We separated from the rest and walked to Marina Square. Had a heavy lunch and off to the classical consert at Lee Foundation Theatre. Liyana, Hasanna, Jana, Armyboy and I sat at the same row. None of us understood the music. Hah. After that, Armyboy and I went to Dhouby Ghaut to buy brownies and we also had some chilly stuffs. He sent me home...

Today, he fetched me again from school (aku suke!) We had dinner at Banquet, walked to Bussorah Street and had sheesha session after that. We tried out a new cool flavour. It was nice. But, it was even nicer that there wasn't much people around. Took a cab home and ...

(:

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Happy 3years & 1 month anniversary<3

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Friday, January 16, 2009

End of the first week of school. So far so good. Except for the part that there's gonna be buckets of projects and assignments this semester *faints* One of my aims this year is to improve on my grades. I don't want anymore Ds. I already had two last year. Oh yeah, I think I have to postpone the sheesha date with armyboy on Monday due to the Anna Kijanowska concert at Lee Foundation Theatre I have to/must attend. I signed up for Singapore Art Scene-Music and had to do two reports on CLASSICAL concerts (I have to do another three reports on other music related stuffs as well) The concert on Monday is very cheap. It costs only 8bucks. Now, 8bucks for that..tell me that's not cheap? Plus, the musician isn't from Southeast Asia. Usually, it'll cost much much more for a concert like this. Damn, armyboy was going to fetch me from school for the first time sia *sobs* I was really looking forward to go to school on Monday. But now, my mood is spoilt.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Lamenting to what I just lost.
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

I don't have the appetite to eat anymore..

& how I wish armyboy was here.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I could no longer hide it.
Abandoning all pretense,
I completely broke down at the very end.
Sigh, I guess what Afiq told me last time was true.
It'll take lotsa patience.
But, patience do have its limit.

Yeah, I'm still holding on.
For now.

Thank god, school starts tomorrow. At least, I can keep my mind on something else. Well, I certainly hope so.

Friday, January 09, 2009

As blue as the ocean.

That's how I feel right now.

So yeah, I've been having slight fever for the past few days and the worst, was that my tonsil were swollen. It was darn hard, trying to swallow. Everything seemed gloomy to me until, Irfan brought a kitten home. I got all psyched up, and totally forgot about being unwell. The kitten was so adorable and so the very manja. And, I decided to call it Cookie. Heh.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

The uncertainty kept lingering.

Spiralling down into a state which left me hanging.

Teardrops streaming for no specific reason.

I felt so low that I needed space for myself to breathe.

If only, we could skip January.

Oh well, Happy 2009 boobs&dicks.