always.

Friday, October 31, 2008

I got to sleep more than the past few weeks. Which, isn’t a good thing. If I get sufficient sleep means that my works are not completed and I didn’t do much. Pelik tapi benar. I’ve been procrastinating alot and was damn lazy. I need you, sweets. Please motivate me..my assessment’s in two weeks time. Sigh. So much to do, so little time. After school, I ate with Jana at LJS. We were famished and dead beat. Oh yeah, one of my earpieces was spoilt and it felt weird when I listened to my mp3. There wasn’t any “kick” to it so I bought another piece of the same type but with different colour. Heh.

I’ve been missing you alot these days.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Today was the last lesson of the module at N.I.E. I’m really gonna miss eating the chicken chop there. It’s cheap and delicious. Anyway, I wore a white long dress and the clan thought I’m gonna meet Azi after class. If only that was true..sigh. He’s having field camp, alright. After lunch, I found out that there was a flea market upstairs. Can you believe it? We got excited.. or was it just me? Hahah. Walked around and browsed on the stuffs they sold. So much of wanting to save money lor. I splurged on two printed tees, one dress and two handcrafted keychains.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I've been pondering quite alot lately.

Monday, October 27, 2008

In within just a few minutes, the boy left my house..I wept. I didn't think that I'd miss him that fast. I spent the last four days with him. Eventhough some of it were short meet ups, it didn't really matter for as long as we got to see each other. Alrighty then, time to switch to the-back-to-school mode again; on full gear. And so far, within the three days, I've only managed to complete this. My first perspective drawing for Mr Tan. Lembabi betul. My view of perspective really sucks and I don't even know whether it's right or wrong. Please someone help me.

Yet to be completed:

Drawing on space A3 size (open concept)

Second perspective A2 size (mampos)

Visual element (peranakan theme)

Ceramics (presentation board and sketches)

Still life A2 size

Haiya, idk why but everytime this shit happens..it will result me to crying. I was so disappointed and sad. I can never hate you even if I tried. I really love you with all my heart.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Yesterday, I decided to charge(sleep) my energy level in the afternoon and planned to wake up at 2100hrs do to my assignments. I'm aware that I can't possibly charge up to 100% but at least 50% should be quite sufficient. While sleeping, I was awaken by a commotion in the other room. It sounded pretty intense so I got out of bed and rushed into the other room. I was appalled when I found out that my youngest brother who's only six got kicked on the mouth with my other brother who's twelve. I didn't know what they did before this but my youngest brother's mouth was bleeding. I blew up, flared up, blazed up, flamed up and exploded. I wasn't the only one. Emil was full of fury as well. We sort of tag teamed on the brother even though we weren't speaking to each other. Don't ask why. I cuddled my little brother to calm him down for a while. After he's okay, I went back to sleep. The next thing I knew, I woke at five-ish in the morning and I have to get ready for school. I suffered from a panic attack. I didn't get to do my assignments. My plans got flushed away. I stoned on my bed for a while and thought whether I should skip class or not. Come to think of it, I haven't been absent ever since I started school which was like four months plus. Thus, I decided not to come and finish up what I have to do at home.

To Rohaishah: Again, I'm really sorry for your lost.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I stayed up all night to complete my ceramics. In the end, I've only completed four. Overall, there must be six of it. I got sick of moulding the clays after two of it cracked. Oh yeah! Azi helped me to mould the clay last Sunday. Hehe. And, it was super duper cute! Too bad, I didn't have the chance to take a picture of it. Anyway, I was the last one to leave the ceramic studio. Four down and two more to go. At last, I did three ceramics; one of it was my back up in case any crack takes place during firing process later on. Sigh. Assessment's coming and it's just around the corner. I have to be extra hardworking and put my sweat, saliva, tears, mucus, blood or whatnot into every one of my works.

Monday, October 20, 2008

No matter how far you are, you'll always be in my heart.

ilysm.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

I met Azi under his block and off we headed to the airport to try the infamous Popeye. HAH. After having lunch, we walked around the airport for a while. I love the way he held my hand because we don't get to do that very often now that he's in camp most of the time. Off to town and stopped by a few places. Then, Azi wanted to go to HMV so I thought, we could go to the swatch shop also. I just like to look at the myriad of watches and dream that one day I could possess one of them. Azi and I went in the shop and he asked me which one do I like. It was hard to decide because I like almost all of them. Haha! When I was done browsing and was about to go out of the shop, Azi pulled my hand. He asked me which one do I like and he said that he's getting it for a friend. At first, I thought it was sorta fishy but then, I was like okay ape2 lah. After purchasing it, he gave me the bag. I was like "wtf!?" I didn't know what to say, really. He got me the watch siaaa. I felt like weeping because he was ohh so sweet. But, I didn't want to ruin my mascara. Hah. I only cried at home when I looked at the watch and read the surprise letter he gave me. I can't believe he sold his Macbeth shoes just to get the extra cash for the watch.

Now, I really don't know what to say.

Happy 2years and 10months anniversary <3

Friday, October 17, 2008

I didn't sleep again. Had to re-do my colour wheel again. On the way to school, I was effing sleepy. Liyana and I was late for class but we did have the time to stop by the bakery shop. Lapar siol. Hah. School was cool but I was so dead beat that I went home straight after that. I slept through the afternoon and woke up at 10pm. I just noticed Azi's text messages. He's back and I was so shocked yet happy because I really thought that he had to stay back in camp. Washed my face, got dressed and sprayed some perfume then went to my aunt's house which is just two floors away(ade open house). Everybody in the house seemed to know that I was asleep before. It was a bit embarrassing and it must've be one of my siblings who told them about it. Anyway, I acted cool and got some food to eat.
Can't wait to see him tomorrow :D

Thursday, October 16, 2008

So, I still need to finish up my N.I.E assignments. I had to present my project today. "Objects of possession" was the topic and I did about my personal diary. I was the third to present and I was so nervous at first but then my classmates laughed alot while I was presenting. Somehow, that made me less nervous and more relaxed. This project really is personal to me and Azizi was my inspiration.

Kau ilham ku.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I planned to stay home to do my colour wheel homework instead of following my family jalan raya. But then, I decided to go to Sheng Siong to get some stuffs and Azi was nice enough to accompany me. Then, he came over and cooked Maggie. I stood aside and let him cook. It was nice (: Okay, Azizi passed masak maggie.Hehe. He had to go off around 1800hrs. So, I continued with my colour wheel until I went colour blind. At night, I chatted with Azi on the phone and I burst into tears when he told me that he might have to stay in camp for three weeks. Three freakin' weeks!!!! I tried to play cool while talking but then he found out that I was weeping. However, it was a good thing that he told me earlier about this so that I could prepare myself in terms of mental and physical.

:( :( :(

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Friday, October 03, 2008

I felt lazy to go to school, was in no mood at all and my assignment's not completed. So, I consulted dearest, and he told me to just go to school. With half-hearted, I went to school. The lecturer was in a bad mood. She gave me a tongue-lashing. I felt bad, disappointed, sad and hopeless and all the negative emotion that exists in the universe. It's not like I always didn't complete my assignments for this class in fact, this is only my first time. I really didn't have the time to do it. I had to clean my room and the house, preparations for Raya etc. At least, I've started on the development. I think she hates me. I swear. She rejected all of my works except for one. No matter how hard I tried, I failed in getting her approval for my works. I had to re-do most of them. On the bright side, I was lucky that I came to school today because the one in charge of us showed us this month's attendance. Here's the deal, for my course, we all have to attain at least 95% attendance or face the consequences. Lucky for me, mine was 100%.

Wake me up when October ends.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

First day of Raya, I met him. Managed to spent a few hours with him. At night, I had to attend this family gathering at Sembawang. I thought it was boring at first, but then it turned out alright.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN