always.

Friday, February 29, 2008

I went all the way to town just to have lunch with Aisah. Actually, it wasn't just lunch, it was also a short catch up-session. Both of us have major dirt to spill. Yeahhh, faham-faham jelah perempuan..hahah! Anyway, we had the famous amos chicken rice at Lucky Plaza. Aww man, it's been a long time since I had that. I simply love the crispy breast sia.. Delicious! Then, I strolled all the way home from Woodlands bus Interchange.

God, the suspense is killing me....

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Everything was more fantastic than I could ever had imagined. I was in the state of ecstasy the whole time. I guess I was feeling high too at some point that I wasn't really aware what the hell was I doing. Anyway, the portraying of the public affection, the ravishing background, the lovely scenery and the twinkling stars which then became the witness of the happenstance. I swear that everything was oh so beautiful that it makes me want to cry.

To the perfect stranger, who successfully made my day beyond blissful..I hereby thank you so much.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Now, I seriously feel like such a dork.. Slenger sia iznorrrrr!!! Bodoh bodoh bodoh..

Omg, this is so mortifying.

F to the U to the C to the K.

:(

Monday, February 25, 2008

Yesterday afternoon, I went to the 08' First Step Gig. Gosh, it's been a really really long time since I went to any gigs. Flashback, I did went to the same themed gig in 05' to watch his band perform. It was more awesome back then. By the way, I thought his band did an excellent job yesterday. And he, was utterly possessed I tell you! Hahah. Wow, he was so highly energetic. Too much caffeine I guess :P Even the older guys in black at the back were headbanging to their songs. Anyway, I felt sorta lethargic on the day before. Maybe, I haven't been getting enough sleep or haven't been eating much lately. Nak share cake.. *pouts* Hah.

And it's all a game
I know we'll stay the same
But repetition ends in failure
And every time I see it in your eyes
When repetition ends, we'll start over..

Temporary, it never hurts to try.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I tried..real hard to be as strong as I could. I thought I was but somehow I wasn't.

Aku pasrah.

PS: Happy 40th Birthday mom and I'll bring you a rose as soon as I get back from the gig.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

At late evening, my sister told me that I seemed pretty happy today.

Friday, February 22, 2008

No matter what, I had to shake it all off. Everything's fine. I'm cool, for now.. that is. Today's my big day and I won't let anyone ruin it for me thank you very much. Anyway, I was in the train when Suvitha, texted me. I didn't know that by alighting at Dhoby Ghaut and taking just one bus, it would be more convenient to get to NAFA. I usually alight at Bugis and walked all the way. Thanks to Suvitha and her cousin for sending me to the room which I was supposed to take an aptitude test. I thought I was quite early, but then the room seemed to be almost fully occupied. Hah. I took a seat somewhere in the front and was given two topics [one of it, using a plastic cup] to design within three hours. It wasn't as simple as I thought it would be. I had to squeeze all of my brain juice to let my creativity flow. Chey, creativity konon..cam betul hah! I managed to finish them within the time given. At first, I thought the one next to me was sorta snobby but then she turned out to be a nice and outgoing person. In fact, all of them seemed nice and friendly, all from various backgrounds. It's interesting that only girls applied for this course. Man, I so so so want this "girl-power" course. It must be fun having an all-girls class. Heh. I had lunch with Jannah and Dalillah [my new friends :) ] at the nearby coffeeshop. It was nice and the three of us were like giving moral support to each other *smiles* We were divided into groups A and B. Then, I was first up in group B for the interview. Ishkkk...I gave the wrong answer to a question. I knew who the artist was but I gave the wrong title of the piece. Sigh. Oh well, I tried. The interview ended extremely early. I was already dead beat so I didn't wait for Suvitha and her cousin. Dahlah kene bangon pagi, mandi air sejok plak tu..Shidah, Jannah, Hasanah, Liyana and I walked together to the train station. Then, it was just Jannah, Liyana and I. Jannah dropped off at Novena while the two of us just stayed in the train and got more acquainted throughout the rest of the journey. Oh yarh..I brought my paints but I forgot to bring along my palette -_-"

I want it, so badly :(

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

It's that period of the month again..sigh. Hours to come, will be those swelling and aches all over. And it's already bad enough that I had to endure having sore throat, cough and bloody blocked nose. Anyway, Azi came over to my place to watch "Shutter" later that afternoon. When he was about to come in, I received a call. I didn't recognise the number and thought that it was probably from someone who wanted to hire me for a job. But boy...was I wrong. The call was from NAFA lah sia!! I'm selected for an interview and a drawing test this Friday at NAFA. Meaning, my interview at MOE the other day was successful *smiles widely*. Alhamdullilah. I'm ohh- so glad that Azi was there when I received that overwhelming news. At least, someone was there, for me to share the joy with and to hug (: Aww man, this really means alot to me. It's what I want for such a long time..
Wish me luck, again..ya'll! heh.

Monday, February 18, 2008

My intention was to do a painting on canvas for Jerine, as her farewell gift. However, I figured that I had no time to complete it due to lack of strength. I've been feeling unwell. So, I decided to buy her something instead. I went to my nearest favourite gift store and got her a no-music glossy jewellery box with a butterfly on top of the cover and also a fake rose [so it will last longer :P] which comes with a heartfelt note. Then, I met Jerine at the Woodlands Bus Interchange, passed her the gift..chatted for a bit. She went off when her bus came while I went to meet Umairah, Muhaimin and Firdaus Saleh. Actually, I had decided not to go for the movie outing but I was afraid of karma [it's a long story] Anyway, I thought they were going to watch "Jumper" at Causeway Point but then, Muhaimin wanted to watch it at town. Hurr..So, we booked the tickets and chilled outdoor. They smoked and we chatted and laughed. Overall, the movie was awesome. Just like what Aisah told me..heh. We went to Heeran after that and browsed some CDs at HMV. Then, I went to Mooks, hoping to see Melissa at work. And, spot on! It was nice seeing her and she seemed to be doing fine :) After that, we four ex-classmates, went back to Woodlands and chilled somewhere near Civic centre. In the end, it was fun catching up on the past and present days with them. I was the first to leave. Walked home with Azi and Hadi. Somehow, Azi and I ended up at the coffee shop. Then, Farhana called to talk about the later plan [project airport] Azi, sent me home and I got changed. My dad, sent me to Paragon which was the meeting point. I got bored waiting in the cab so I decided to see Tasha at the outlet. She was still mopping! I saw Daphne and Shereen as well. Then, Tasha asked me to help out with the latte glasses, cups, plates and utensils. Anyway, I was a little intimidated with this particular staff. Her face, seemed very moody. Scary sia. At the entrance to Paragon, the Wheelock clan came. Woahhh! Kecoh-roboh. Haha! It was so so so nice to see Irya, Farhana, Maira, Megat and Farhan. When Tasha was ready, all of us took the cab. Megat didn't tag along though. Finally, we got to the airport. It's been some time since I last went there. The atmosphere was pretty quiet. Then, someone suggested that we play "catching". We oyabeyyasom-ed and there's two catchers. Siol lahhhhhhh...gerek to the max sia! The airport seemed empty and there's a whole lot of spaces for us to run everywhere like crazy kids :D And, I didn't know that I could still run that fast..heh. By the time we stopped, it was sorta hard to breathe. Must be the air-con. We went to MacDonald's and ate. Oh yah, Irya told me that I lost weight. You know, it's funny..everytime I wear Azi's orange NYP shirt, someone will always state the same comment. Maybe, the shirt makes me look slim. HAHAH. And yeah, it was fun catching up and having some laughs. Then, we went outdoor to have a smoke. But, I didn't smoke. Irya, brought us to the place where we could see the planes. We lepak there for some time and listened to Tasha's hilarious stories and whatnot. Great company, great time :) Walked from T2 to Budget Airlines. It was more like a long distanced night walk and Irya was the chief. Haha! We formed one single line and head counted few times. At last, we reached to the Budget airlines. Spent the last few minutes with Jerine before she leaves. One last wheelock big hug and off she went. A touching moment that was *sob sob* We took the shuttle bus to T2 and went separate ways. Farhana and I took 858 home. It took about an hour to reach Woodlands Bus Interchange. We got hungry and we went to Old Chang Kee, grab something to bite. Goodbyes were said, departures were made. I walked home like a zombie because I wanted to save my ezlink value. I was elated when I got to my block. I was already dreaming of my bed. Haven't slept the whole day. I feel sick again.
I'm dead beat, sweetheart beat.

Wow, this must've been the longest post.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

When I woke up at noon, my whole body felt frail. Moreover, I've got sore throat and I felt chilly. Usually, these are some of the symptoms I get before I actually have a fever.

Haiiii...penat lahhhh :(

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I didn't sleep well last night. Tossed and turned many times till finally I fell asleep. My mom told me to fetch Fidzul from school today. Then, at exactly 1100hrs. Someone called me. I didn't recognise the number though. However, I answered it anyway. It was from the MOE. Hah, terperanjat berok gua! To my horror, I had an interview to attend at 1230hrs. I wasn't even aware that I was selected for the interview. I never even get to see any letter from them. What the hell!? I asked the person whether I could have it postponed to tomorrow or not. But the person said, that it's not possible and I must be there by 1300hrs the latest. Pushed the panic button and I ran around the house like some maniac to get things done pronto and double check everything. I haven't even bathe sia. I almost felt like weeping. I called my cousin and told her that I got selected for the interview. She gave me some significant tips; what to say and to do before and during the interview itself. Then, I realised I don't have any formal footwear. I borrowed a pair of heels from my other cousin who lives at level six. Yeahhhh..I wore the heels but I don't fancy them one bit. By the way, it was quite tight so I brought my sandals in any case of emergency. I took the cab and used up the money I've been saving to pay for my bills -_-" Then, I had to go up and down several times to photocopy some documents. Anyway, the interview went SLIGHTLY better this time round, I guess. I had quite a lot to talk about when compared to last year. I was more confident than before as well. Credit goes to my cousin who helped me alot despite the last minute notice and to the taxi driver who sent me to the MOE building. I went home by taking the train. During the train ride, my mind replayed of what happened a few hours before and suddenly, everything went solemn. I told myself, just don't look back and smile to the world. What's done is done anyway. Man, I just hope I got this course this time. Wish me luck, ya'll :)

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I stayed at home the whole day. Sounds boring ain't it? Well, it kinda was. Hah. Anyway, I did some spring cleaning just now. Damn, now I know how filthy my bedroom is. I swept the floor, vacuumed thrice, wiped almost everywhere and shifted some stuffs. I guess, now my bedroom seemed more spacious than before. Moreover, by doing some cleaning..I got to exercise at the same time (: It's not like what Megat said, "Duduk rumah..besarkan pantat". Eff lah, my eyes burned when I saw my cellphone bill.

I'd do anything for a smile,
Holding you till our time is done.
We both know the day will come..
But I don't want to leave you.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

"..He smiled at me and the entire world stopped. It was a smile I would see many times and it would have the same effect every time, no matter what else was happening. It was a magic smile.."

Monday, February 04, 2008

Out of the blue, I thought about Shila last night. It's been quite some time since I last saw her. I missed her. Then, today I saw her in the train. I got to chat with her for a while. Man, it was nice seeing her. Heh.

Gwe sayang banget sama loh *kening2*

Saturday, February 02, 2008

I shall respect your decision, then.