always.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Went over to my aunt's place at Marsiling Drive to sent some stuff. Proceeded to Sheng Siong after that to get the ingredients to make some hoon kuehs. I decided to make some for sweets. It's been quite a while since I last attempted on making those hoon kuehs. In the end, it didn't turn out the way it was supposed to be or the way I pictured it would be like when it's done. Anyway, I did my best and I've done all I could to make it seem flawless. Met him at the usual bus stop. Ohh! And he bought me milk tea..heheh. We settled down and chatted for a while. I really missed him and I'm still missing him. Then, we sort of played with this cat. I think the cat likes me better than him..haha. When it was time for him to go, I really wished that I could seize the day.

Berdua denganmu pasti lebih baik.
Aku yakin itu.
Bila sendiri, hati bagai langit terselimut kabur.

Friday, September 29, 2006

Woohoo!! I managed to get full marks for today's chemistry class test. We're supposed to memorise the whole cation and anion test. Oh yeah, those who scored less than 13 marks for the chemistry's Section A in the prelim exam would have to do approximately 700 sets of mcqs and it is due right before the graduation day. Unfortunately, I only scored 10. Hilma and Umairah scored above 13 marks so they didn't get the whole stacks of mcqs but nevertheless they still wanted to do them. If only I was as hardworking as them..Anyway, I was supposed to meet Zak, Hilma and Umairah at 7.50pm but I was fashionably late..hah. We planned to go for the night prayers together at the mosque. Then, I bumped into Aisah at the traffic light. So, we went inside the mosque together. After the prayers then we met up with Zak, Hilma and Umairah. Reached home about 2200hrs.

Monday, September 25, 2006

I hate Mondays. I was in the bus on the way to school when out of the sudden, it rained cats and dogs. Grr..mesti Azi shiok tido sey..hah. Most of the upper secondary students didn't stop at the usual bus stop but turned one whole round instead. There were student councellors going back and forth with big umbrellas supposingly getting the students at the bus stop to school so that they won't get totally drenched. Aisah and I shared the umbrella with this student councellor. We saw Amirul then, Aisah decided to get under Amirul's umbrella and left me. Then, the student councellor left me in the rain, on the sidewalk ): I assumed that he thinks that I wanted to follow Aisah..sigh. So un-gentleman. I saw another student councellor carrying two big umbrellas walking pass by. I asked him whether I could use one of it since there were two but he totally ignored me *pouts*. Amirul and Aisah laughed at me. The graduating classes received a new timetable. At first, I thought that there wouldn't be much difference but boy..was I wrong. To my horror, it was absolutely different. From every Mondays to Thursdays, lessons will end at 1700hrs. Each lesson for every subject is two hours long. There would only be two breaks and each is only half an hour. I feel like crying.

Banyak cobaan di bulan Ramadhan..

Sunday, September 24, 2006

The fasting starts today. I couldn't sleep after sahur. Ended up chatting with sweets (: Then, I had my shower and got dressed to get ready to go to the mosque. I went alone because my mom had to work and Emil's asleep. I was a little late as usual. I failed to hold back my tears. I didn't bump into any familiar faces this time..probably because I was in such a hurry to my aunt's house as soon as it was over. Ouh yah, I'm facing a dilemma. I don't want to miss the S'pore Idol live performance nor would I want to miss tonight's solat terawih.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Walked to school like a brainless human. Almost everything was a blur to me. Successfully stayed up throughout the soundless night; completing 95% of the art prep work. Nonetheless, I managed to complete the whole prep work including the final design within 3 hours at the examination hall. There was even extra few minutes left for me to do some stretching..hah. A part of me felt sort of relieve while the other part of me felt unsettled. Anyway, one more paper to go..sigh.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

I'm dying to stay alive.

I wish I could just lay there with you and let the time pass by.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

There's really no need for apologies.

; it's psychologically, fathomable.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed

fuck

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Attended this event at the An-nur mosque along with my mom and Irfan. Emil came a little later. I managed to squeeze in some social studies while waiting for the event to start. I was so focused at that time that even those puny kids that were running around didn't seem get on my nerves. After the event, my mom and I squeezed through the crowd to get out. Then, I bumped into Sarah (Ariffin) who was with Rafidah. Sarah's so adorable and Rafidah's so beautiful. I used to think that Rafidah's the most hottest girl in school and I think that if I were a guy, I'll definitely fall for her. I waved at them and walked away. Irfan kental lodeh lost his slippers. People received free plastic bags to put their slippers in it so it won't get lost but smart-ass Irfan thinks he doesn't need one. Went to the chalet at Pasir Ris after that. Actually, I didn't want to go but for my mom's sake, I had to. It's sort of a gathering for all the workers who used to work at this restaurant called Bintang Timur. They invited the "Unsangkarables". Emil and I were like two total misfits. We ate way outside of the chalet, on the sidewalk. I wanted to go the lavatory but everytime I wanted to go, there's always people going in. I gave up and asked Emil to accompany me in search for the public restroom. We were kinda of lost. Then, I suggested that we enter the gate that was going towards Pasir Ris beach. We walked until a certain point which was so dark and filled with silence. Emil was either too afraid or lazy to walk any further. We turned the other way and finally found the restroom. It was such a relieve. I wanted to stay at the beach a little longer but Emil feels that we better head back to the gathering. I didn't get a chance to study after that because I was too lethargic.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Boarded the 913 bus where I met this curly-haired and chubby indian lady and her nerdy-looking son. I was staring blankly at the window when I heard someone said "Excuse me..". I turned to the opposite side and then realised that the indian lady was actually talking to me. She and her son were sort of lost. She asked me whether the bus would head to the checkpoint or not. I had to explain to her a few times because she didn't quite catch what I said. Then, she started a conversation. Most of the time, I just smiled and nodded my head to what she was saying. Oh yarh, she thought that I was in secondary 2 or 3 and she said that I look young and didn't seem to look like I'm a secondary 5 student. I gladly took that as a compliment and I began to smile to myself..haha. When I was about to alight, she said goodbye. I like her, she's friendly..hehe. I settled at the exact spot as yesterday's when I was at the library. I didn't have the time to do maths. I only managed to study for social studies. About ten minutes to nine, I went to the lavatory. While washing my hands, I heard someone exclaimed,"Is anyone in there?!". I knew that it must be one of those staffs of the library. So, I quickly dried my hands and rushed out. Out of the sudden, I heard my name being called in a tentative tone. I stopped and turned back. It was Ariffin and he was still drying his hands in the lavatory. I waited for him quite a distance from the male's lavatory. I felt odd standing there because from outside, I could clearly see the insides of the men's room. I didn't expect to see him there. It was mere coincidence. Like me, he was also there to mug all by himself. We talked as we walked. The both of us were starving. Ariffin suggested to eat but I didn't bring any cash with me. He said that that's alright and decided to treat me a burger ramli. I told him that sweets was working and when we passed the entrance, we took a glimpse from the outside. We saw him..then, sweets and I waved at each other. Actually, Ariffin was about to wave at him also but then sweets seemed to be in such a hurry. After buying the burgers and drink, we sat somewhere behind the mrt station and finished it. A bunch of typical malays sat next to us..Ariffin had to wait for me to finish the burger as I ate very slow. We swiftly made a move after that. At the interchange we parted. In the bus, there was this caucasian baby with blonde hair who sat infront of me. He was ohh so adorable that I could just poke his chubby cheeks (which I didn't). He smiled at me and he wanted to grab my bottle which I was holding..heh. Such a cutie pie.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Went to the Woodlands library alone at around sixish in the afternoon. I found a single and available table on the second floor but I didn't think that I'll be able to focus because there were quite a number of people studying there and the big glass panels would somehow make me feel agitated. So, I went to search for a soundless and placid corner to mug. Managed to spot one and so I settled down. I decided to make a move five minutes before 2100hrs. While walking in between the shelves, I saw these two very familiar looking guys. Heck, I didn't expect to see Azi and Hadi there. In point of fact, I was somehow hoping to see Azi but I didn't expect at all that I would see him. It was indeed a pleasant surprise, for me at least..Anyway, at Causeway Point, Azi and I parted with Hadi. Then, the two of us strolled under the dark sky which overlay the sheer sight of the ravishing moon. Sat at our usual spot and just wasted some time away. At that very point of time, a subtle feeling overcame within me. Sigh, I have yet to fulfill the promise I made to my dear mushroomhead..

Friday, September 01, 2006

Azi accompanied me to the Woodlands Polyclinic as my condition was pretty bad than the day before. I was down with a slight fever, sore throat, influenza, cough and sucky saw eyes. I was a bit woozy due to the sunny weather. I felt odd wearing shades as I don't usually wear them. By the time we got to the polyclinic, it was lunch hour. Had to wait for an hour or so. Finally, I got to see the doctor. He checked my heartbeat, eyes, tonsils and my body temperature. I was prescribed with two different eyes drops, paracetamols, flu tablets, liquid-formed antibiotics and lozenges. I was told that if my condition showed no improvement after three days, I would have to see the doctor again. Azi and I walked all the way to the Woodlands Bus Interchange. That was where we went our separate ways. I really really appreciate what he'd done for me. Accompanying me, enduring the long waiting hours, bringing some life during the dull moments by being lame, making my day, making me smile and laugh despite being unwell, putting up with my craps and a whole lot more. I thank you endlessly. Just like my love for you; there is no end. I love you. I love you ohh so much.