always.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I find it hard to resist. The temptation of touching it. The excitement when I finally get my hands on it. I've tried but I failed. I'm not sure why but my fingers are causing the itch. I'm so addicted to this marvelous invention; computer..hah. Anyway, I've been lacking of sleeps lately. However, when I do get the chance to sleep, my two little brothers would always ruin them. Sometimes, they make me feel like weeping. Maybe, just maybe..I'm holding it all inside of me; not letting/wanting it to unfold. Luckily, Emil's around. On the other hand, going out with him is definitely love. He's like my very own painkiller. He can take the pain away and make me high then turn me upside down (okay, I don't think I'm making any sense here). Plus, I'm always looking forward to our next meeting (: .Oh yarh, I'm not quite done with my art preparatory work. Tomorrow's the day and I'm sure that many of them are still working on it. At first, I assumed the exam begins at 0800hrs but then Yufang called.

And it went something like this..
Yufang: Eh..art start what time uh?
Me: (sounded confident) 8am uh
Yufang: It's 2pm right?
Me:*checks the entry proof*ehh yarh lahh, start at 2pm!!
Yufang: Hehe..
Me: Yay! Ehh good uh..can wake up late.
Yufang: Haha! ya ya..

*Twinkle twinkle little star*

Note to self: Sometimes, I don't even understand what I'm saying.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I'm likely to be disconcerted by...hiatuses of thought.

Lacuna.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Pictures that speak.

Today's graduation day. Had to be in school by 0830hrs. I was late because I waited for Aisah. All were to be assembled at the school hall. I gave out the handmade "Good Luck" cards to my classmates before the prize presentation kicked off. Unfortunately, Ariffin, Firdaus and Nisham were absent. Hilma was ohh so sweet, she gave out some small containers containing some honey cornflakes (kuih raya) to each of us. The whole thing was practically dull. After that, we proceeded to our class to receive our testimonials and report books. My testimonial had to be delayed because I lost the travel slip. Before that, my class took some pictures to keep as sweet memories. I'm really going to miss the school, my classroom, teachers and my dear fellow classmates from 5B *sobs*. My results made my eyes sore. Sigh. I have to work extremely harder and get the best out of me because sometimes, I may not realise what I'm capable of doing under time constraint. Sadly, the only thing that I'm proud of was that I got gold for Napha test this year.

[Mid Yr]
Eng- C6
Mly- B3
Maths- F9
Comb. Sci- F9
Comb. Human- F9
Art&Design- C5

Total: 246.0/600
Percentage: 41.0
L1R4: 32
L1R5: 41

[Prelims]
Eng- C6
Mly- B3
Maths- F9
Comb. Sci- F9
Comb. Human- F9
Art&Design- B3

Total: 276/600
Percentage: 46.0
Class position: 10/21
Level Position: 30/48
L1R4: 30
L1R5: 39

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I stumbled upon this show on suria channel called "Kau Istimewa". It really moved me to tears as it touched my heart. There's this part of the show which was about a man who's about my dad's age. He's suffering from kidney problem. Both of his kidneys are in poor condition and he has to go for dialysis thrice a week. He's the breadwinner of the family since his wife is not working and had to support the family including his three kids. What really saddens me was that his wife stayed by his side while he's on dialysis because she feared that "anything" might happen to him. Moreover, she stood by him for four hours during each treatment. This is what I call; unconditional love. When I watched this show, I thought about my dad. He's a hardcore smoker who currently has high blood pressure and hypertension. According to my mom, sometimes, he complains that his heart aches. It really worries me; his smoking habit. It feels like having one's heart in one's mouth as there's a high possibility that he might get lung cancer. My dearest late grandfather was a hardcore smoker too and he died because of lung cancer. I don't want history to repeat itself and I don't want to lose the ones I love and cherish most due to the deadly effects of smoking ):

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Looking all messed up and blur, right after the maths extra class, I went to meet Azi somewhere near the playground. He wanted to return my tupperwares back. In about less than five minutes, we went our separate ways. With my head down; I kept smiling to myself and was hoping that Zak and Umairah didn't notice. Seeing him, makes that tired feeling of mine go faraway. When I opened one of the tupperwares, I saw some hot golden nuggets yo! I can't seem to wipe off that smile right out of my face. You really made my day sayang (:

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Sense of solitariness overcame me; without your presence, there was only black and white. All I see is that empty seat right next to me. Collecting dust and left untouched by its rightful owner (ass). There's no one to smack my ass, share my fake laughter with, draw imaginary sketches on my back, doodle on my stuffs, share secrets with, squeeze my fats, make dumb faces with. Sigh. The time spent in school seemed a lot more longer in the midst of your absence. I'm praying and hoping that you'll always be fine and that nothing bad would fall upon you. I'll be there whenever you need me 24/7. I don't want to lose you. I'd give you my blood or one of my kidneys if I have to because that's how much you really mean to me.

She is my companion;
classmate;
partner in crime;
and my best friend.


I love making things from scratch and I sleep to escape. blue_fire12@hotmail.com Azi<3 Aisley* Dalillah Farhana Hasyim Irya Jamilah Liyana-FLGG Muiling Rohaishah Shila Xinyi Zakiah Old days May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 Bituwin - template Dementee - image	Tuesday, October 31, 2006 I find it hard to resist. The temptation of touching it. The excitement when I finally get my hands on it. I've tried but I failed. I'm not sure why but my fingers are causing the itch. I'm so addicted to this marvelous invention; computer..hah. Anyway, I've been lacking of sleeps lately. However, when I do get the chance to sleep, my two little brothers would always ruin them. Sometimes, they make me feel like weeping. Maybe, just maybe..I'm holding it all inside of me; not letting/wanting it to unfold. Luckily, Emil's around. On the other hand, going out with him is definitely love. He's like my very own painkiller. He can take the pain away and make me high then turn me upside down (okay, I don't think I'm making any sense here). Plus, I'm always looking forward to our next meeting (: .Oh yarh, I'm not quite done with my art preparatory work. Tomorrow's the day and I'm sure that many of them are still working on it. At first, I assumed the exam begins at 0800hrs but then Yufang called. And it went something like this.. Yufang: Eh..art start what time uh? Me: (sounded confident) 8am uh Yufang: It's 2pm right? Me:checks the entry proofehh yarh lahh, start at 2pm!! Yufang: Hehe.. Me: Yay! Ehh good uh..can wake up late. Yufang: Haha! ya ya.. Twinkle twinkle little star Note to self: Sometimes, I don't even understand what I'm saying. 12:07 PM · Wednesday, October 18, 2006 I'm likely to be disconcerted by...hiatuses of thought. Lacuna. 1:35 PM · Monday, October 16, 2006 Pictures that speak. 10:28 PM · Today's graduation day. Had to be in school by 0830hrs. I was late because I waited for Aisah. All were to be assembled at the school hall. I gave out the handmade "Good Luck" cards to my classmates before the prize presentation kicked off. Unfortunately, Ariffin, Firdaus and Nisham were absent. Hilma was ohh so sweet, she gave out some small containers containing some honey cornflakes (kuih raya) to each of us. The whole thing was practically dull. After that, we proceeded to our class to receive our testimonials and report books. My testimonial had to be delayed because I lost the travel slip. Before that, my class took some pictures to keep as sweet memories. I'm really going to miss the school, my classroom, teachers and my dear fellow classmates from 5B sobs. My results made my eyes sore. Sigh. I have to work extremely harder and get the best out of me because sometimes, I may not realise what I'm capable of doing under time constraint. Sadly, the only thing that I'm proud of was that I got gold for Napha test this year. [Mid Yr] Eng- C6 Mly- B3 Maths- F9 Comb. Sci- F9 Comb. Human- F9 Art&Design- C5 Total: 246.0/600 Percentage: 41.0 L1R4: 32 L1R5: 41 [Prelims] Eng- C6 Mly- B3 Maths- F9 Comb. Sci- F9 Comb. Human- F9 Art&Design- B3 Total: 276/600 Percentage: 46.0 Class position: 10/21 Level Position: 30/48 L1R4: 30 L1R5: 39 7:18 AM · Sunday, October 15, 2006 I stumbled upon this show on suria channel called "Kau Istimewa". It really moved me to tears as it touched my heart. There's this part of the show which was about a man who's about my dad's age. He's suffering from kidney problem. Both of his kidneys are in poor condition and he has to go for dialysis thrice a week. He's the breadwinner of the family since his wife is not working and had to support the family including his three kids. What really saddens me was that his wife stayed by his side while he's on dialysis because she feared that "anything" might happen to him. Moreover, she stood by him for four hours during each treatment. This is what I call; unconditional love. When I watched this show, I thought about my dad. He's a hardcore smoker who currently has high blood pressure and hypertension. According to my mom, sometimes, he complains that his heart aches. It really worries me; his smoking habit. It feels like having one's heart in one's mouth as there's a high possibility that he might get lung cancer. My dearest late grandfather was a hardcore smoker too and he died because of lung cancer. I don't want history to repeat itself and I don't want to lose the ones I love and cherish most due to the deadly effects of smoking ): 4:53 PM · Wednesday, October 11, 2006 Looking all messed up and blur, right after the maths extra class, I went to meet Azi somewhere near the playground. He wanted to return my tupperwares back. In about less than five minutes, we went our separate ways. With my head down; I kept smiling to myself and was hoping that Zak and Umairah didn't notice. Seeing him, makes that tired feeling of mine go faraway. When I opened one of the tupperwares, I saw some hot golden nuggets yo! I can't seem to wipe off that smile right out of my face. You really made my day sayang (: 3:33 AM · Tuesday, October 10, 2006 Sense of solitariness overcame me; without your presence, there was only black and white. All I see is that empty seat right next to me. Collecting dust and left untouched by its rightful owner (ass). There's no one to smack my ass, share my fake laughter with, draw imaginary sketches on my back, doodle on my stuffs, share secrets with, squeeze my fats, make dumb faces with. Sigh. The time spent in school seemed a lot more longer in the midst of your absence. I'm praying and hoping that you'll always be fine and that nothing bad would fall upon you. I'll be there whenever you need me 24/7. I don't want to lose you. I'd give you my blood or one of my kidneys if I have to because that's how much you really mean to me. She is my companion; classmate; partner in crime; and my best friend. 1:45 AM ·