always.

Monday, July 31, 2006

There's no school today because of the Election thingy. Every school is given a day off and my school chose 1st of August as a day off. However, my chemistry teacher decided to conduct a chemistry workshop session which is optional for secondary 4 and 5; Express and Normal Academic classes. I decided to go because I know that my chemistry knowledge sucks. From the school foyer, I could hear Mr Tan's voice. Actually, I wasn't sure where the exact location was but with the help of Mr Tan's voice, I managed to find where the class was. When I knocked on the door, he didn't open because he was teaching so I figured that he didn't want to be intruded..then, I tried opening the door but it was locked. So, I just stood outside like stupid for about five minutes; scratching my head and thinking of what to do. I went further back and tried opening the other 2 doors but it was locked too. Finally, the last door was opened..sigh. I found a spot and settled down at the back. Aisah was already somewhere infront. About five minutes later, Ariff came. Another fifteen minutes later, Ariffin and Muhaimin came. Ariffin sat beside me and told me what happened to him earlier this morning. It was funny and I think he's found himself a crush..hahah. I copied the things which Mr Tan wrote on the board and I felt that I understood slightly better about organics. At the end of the session, Aisah told me that Mr Tan had purposely lock the front door so that no latecomers could enter and they were to find their own way into the class themselves. Bloody cheesecake.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

The day before, I went home at around 6.15pm because I had to paint my canvas board. Actually, I wanted to stay till 7pm but then I didn't want to keep Ariff waiting We planned to go to the gig at NYP together. Met up with Ariff infront of Burger King at around 7.35pm. I felt really bad because he waited for me for like an hour or so. I wanted to catch Azi's performance while Ariff wanted to see his friend in action. Too bad Aisah can't make it. Bumped into Shila and clan. Shila told me that S4X had already performed. I was already in the state of awe. It was such a let down. The reason I came was just to see S4X perform. Afterall, this would be the last gig that I'm going to before my O levels. Anyway, after searching, I finally found Azi. I didn't mosh. I was dead tired, I haven't eaten the whole day and my body was still aching from the previous P.E lesson. I just stood aside and held on to Azi's stuffs because he wanted to mosh. After it was all over, I bumped into Regina. We talked for a while. I didn't recognise her at first because I was sleepy and my eyes were blurry*smacks forehead*. She said that she's currently doing Sports and Management at NYP. Then, Ariff went off first while I waited for Azi to settle some things. On the way to the MRT station, I saw Ariff. So, I just smiled and wave. Despite having bloody blisters, Azi sent me home. Out of the sudden, the phrase "sweet agony" came to me. Go figure.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

There are only five O' level passes in my class. I'm one of them. UNFORTUNATELY, the three subjects which I've passed are certainly not the core subjects which could get me into a polytechnic or probably anywhere except ITE. I have nothing against ITE but if I were to enter ITE in case I flunk my major examinations, that would be a total waste. I mean, if I wanted to go into ITE, I could've skipped secondary 5 and head straight for ITE. My results are ohh so horrible. I can't even rest in peace.

ENG- C6
MALAY- B3
MATHS- F9
COMB. SCIENCE- F9
COMB. HUMANITIES- F9
ART AND DESIGN- C5

L1R4: 32
L1R5: 41

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

I'm so drained, I could die. Okay bedek.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

I could barely open my eyes and I felt as though I was a zombie walking on the hard concrete without rhyme or reason. I know I've said this before..but school's a real drag. And there's no guarantee that I would be able to make it through and survive the bloodcurdling battle. Time is running out. Only a few months left. Things will just remain the way they are unless I do something about it. Anyway, for CDP lesson, all of us were given a red t-shirt to design something for this year's national day. I was all freshed out of ideas of what to design. After asking Mr Chongium some questions on physics..Kaisah, Ariffin, Aisah and I walked together. Aisah and I parted from the both of them infront of block 23. While Aisah was waiting for me at the bus stop, I met up with my sweetheart by the traffic light for a while to get my mp3 back. I truly appreciate that he walked all the way from his house just to pass me back my mp3. Moreover, I was glad to see him even for a while and out of the sudden, the fatigue of a long day was somehow alleviated. *smiles* I need my mp3 for tomorrow's art lesson. I'm able to focus more while listening to music as I paint my canvas board. Plus, I could pretend not to hear if anyone intends to start a conversation with me..hah. I find that very peeving. I don't wish to be intruded while I'm painting.

Monday, July 24, 2006

School was as usual, normal. I really like today's chemistry practical, it was pretty chill. All we had to do was to play around with the unknown solutions and figure out whether it's an alkaline or not. During assembly, there was a Racial Harmony concert held by some lower secondary students. So far, the Bhangra dance was the most fun to watch and entertaining. There was this cute tubby little boy..I think he's in secondary 1, he was like..doing the opposite dance steps. For instance, he was supposed to turn to the left but he turned right instead. Aisah and I thought he looks like a mini ninja turtle..probably it's because of his round head..haha. After that, the art students assembled at the foyer and waited for the bus. Ten minutes later, the bus came and off we went to HarbourFront to view some prize winning artworks by some of the local students. We were given 45mins to look around the showcase. I could tell..in fact, everyone could tell that Ms Yong was so proud that one of the student from my school got bronze. The artworks there were superbly done and looked marvellous. I seriously don't think I can beat any of those. The irresistible scent of the junk food and the drooling cum pleasant sight of the ice-cream shop was very luring. It's not that I didn't have any cash with me..its just that, I want to save my money for this Friday. Anyway,we reached school at about 5.15pm.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I didn't expect to see Umairah in the bus. I planned to meet sweets under his block to pass him my mp3 before heading off to school for the art intensive session. I was supposed to meet him at about 0745am but I was sorta late. Anyway, Umairah waited for me somewhere near the provision shop under block 10. Sweets was already there waiting for me by the staircase. He was ohhh so very very adorable and slenger..hahah! He doesn't look his age. He looks much more younger..probably looks younger than me..hah. So, I sat next to him and showed how my mp3 works. Then, I rushed to the block 10. Umairah and I bought some candies, the ones which made our tongues turn to the colours of the respective candies..that sort. I felt replenished and calm while painting my canvas board. It's a form of unwinding myself from all the hectic-ness of life. Sigh. I felt awful for not coming down to catch sweets perform :(

Friday, July 21, 2006

Today's Racial Harmony Day. I was kinda late so I didn't wear that modern sorta dull black cheongsam to school. Nobody in my class was wearing any traditional costume except for Amirul, Azizi, Firdaus and Ariffin. Amirul wore this pink baju kurung and I didn't think that the colour pink suited him. In my opinion, not every guy can look hot in pink..heh. There was no concert except for a speech given by Mr Raqi about the significance of the Racial Harmony Day. The concert will be dragged on till Monday during the assembly period. The lower secondary girls seem to really dressed up for it. Applying foundations, make ups and wearing heels..I mean, what's up with that? During social studies, Aisah and I were doing our work..then, Azmi did this super funny act. He was like practically skipping his way to the back of the class with his hands bending and imitating how a t-rex walks. It was super hilarious. Then, Ariff did the same..and this time we laughed much more harder because he's very tall and it was so burok yet humourous. During english lesson, we did oral and conversation. If it was a boy's turn, up next would be a girl. Vice-versa. It was Ariff's turn. Then, Mr Poh asked him to choose a girl next, to read a passage out aloud using a microphone. He chose me..sigh. I screwed up in the first sentence. Everyone laughed. The boys behind were so distracting. I managed to pull it off. Aisah and Zakiah said I sounded different. They said I sounded more girly. But I wasn't so sure what they meant. Then, I chose Ariffin to go next..hah. He was like.."Ohh..takpe2...". Had lunch after school. Stayed in the art room for a couple hours. About 2.30pm, went for the english extra class which ended around 5pm.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

My mom woke me up at around 1 am. Cooked mee maggi cepat di masak sedap di makan. Shared with Mushroomhead. He's still awake at that hour. I wanted to study and revise in my room but my sister asked me to go to living room because the light was very distracting to her. So, I plopped myself on the couch and carried on with what I was doing. A few minutes later, My dad told me to go elsewhere because it was impossible for Mushroomhead to sleep with the lights on. Therefore, I left the house and went to the staircase where peace was finally found. Did my maths homework a little, in addition, some revisions. About 10mins to 5am, I dosed off. Woke up at around 6.15am. Ohh yeah, I can't believe I'm saying this but today's maths lesson was great. It was taken over by the vice principal. Yess..the vice principal. He used to be the head of the maths department. He went into my class with a styroform cup filled with semi-hot coffee and a sandwich which was half eaten. The vice principal, shut all the windows, decreased the rate of the fans and told the class to combine all of our tables together. He's so funny and very animated. He spent two and a half hours, teaching us maths. There's no P.E lesson because all of the P.E teachers had gone for a camp. Surprisingly, I find the maths lesson very interesting and fun. I was fresh the whole of that period and was not sleepy at all. Even Nisham didn't fell asleep. He usually falls asleep when Mdm Wong's teaching..you see. The vice principal called me to solve an equation on the whiteboard..he thought I was a chinese. Anyway, we wanted to skip mother tongue lesson but he told us to go. My form teacher told us that she wants to meet all of our parents because all of us didn't do well for the MYE. I saw Ella at the bus stop while going home. She tapped my shoulder and said "Hey, 913 come oreadi!!". I was like..Ella.!!! Then, we boarded the same bus. She was heading over to Rashid's house which was somewhere near my house. Aww man...I really really miss hanging out with her ):

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Got back some of my mid year exam results. My results are so terrible and horrible. I failed maths (duhh..), chemistry, physics and history. Passed English but it was a borderline pass though. I'll be getting my social studies paper back tomorrow. My history teacher wanted to see me, one to one. According to her, I did badly for the seq section and I got all the facts wrong. Sigh. Stayed back after school for the usual chemistry test then went home. I didn't go for physics. It's not compulsory anyway. I'd rather have sweets explaining those physics junks to me rather than Mr Chongium, who often spits as he speaks. A sudden headache struck me while I was on the way to the bus stop. So, even if I went for physics..I'll probably won't understand what Mr Chongium is explaining about.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Slept around 4 am. Went to school with Aisah and Umairah by cab. We're late. Well, not exactly uh..it was Umairah who was late. Eversince the cab fare had increased, we always thought that sharing a cab would be a good idea whenever we're late. However, I didn't intend to spent my very last crispy 2 bucks on the cab fare. Instead, I intended to use that money to pay Zakiah. But then, Aisah and I did took a cab to school because we pity Umairah. My school shoes looked filthier than ever. My sister entered the intense mosh pit with my shoes on, during day 2 of Baybeats 06'. And I can't imagine how my olive green high-cut sneakers would look like after being worn by my sister's boyfriend who's such a pain in the ass. I just hope that he doesn't ruin them. Anyway, I relieved my ennui by staring blindly at the cottony clouds from my class window or the back door. The more they talk about soccer, the more disgusted I get. I tend to drift myself from them whenever they start to have conversations about anything that has to do with soccer. Then, Ariffin asked me whether I wanted to join the boys to play soccer at the usual spot. I didn't want to get myself all sweaty before the malay O level listening comprehension and plus, I didn't bring along my P.E attire today. During the maths clinic, Mdm Wong thought that I looked a bit off colour and my eyes were a little puffy. It was tough but I managed to convince her that I was alright.. Ohh yarh, the listening compre was ohh so very hard. The options given, mostly seemed like the ideal answer. It's so confusing and so tricky...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

On Saturday morning, had to go to school for the art intensive session. By the time I got home, I was so worn out and wasn't in the mood for anything. Had second thoughts of going to Baybeats again. Eventually, I did went..with sweets, Shila, Hadi and his schoolmates. It's a big group. Felt like an extra though. Saw the pinholes. They're great and looked so adorable on stage. I didn't even set a foot in the Arena. Just stood outside somewhere near the white shelter. Saw Nadhirah and Ariff walking among the sweaty crowds. Then, saw this guy who looked like Ariffin. When he took off his sweater, there's no doubt that that's Ariffin because I saw the class logo at the back of his black shirt..haha. Sweets and I went further down to the other side of Esplanade. We sat on the rocks by the bay as we listened to the sounds from the Arena. The view there was just splendid. The water was so sparkly due to the lights from the construction side which was opposite. The breeze was ohh so soothing which later on, got me and sweets quivering. It was pretty relaxing as I really needed that after completing my MYE. We caught the last train from city hall. Sweets walked me home and saw Siti along the way. I really missed her. She's so adorable. The bus came a few minutes after we got to the bus stop and sweets boarded the bus. Luckily, he managed to catch the last bus.

Last Friday was my last paper which was physics. It was sort of okay I guess. After that, I continued to paint my canvas. Then, went for the trial mother tongue listening comprehension in preparation of the real thing which is on Monday. Did my painting again for a couple of hours and went home. Aisah and I went to Baybeats at around 6 plus. The event hadn't started yet by the time we got there. So, we chilled with my sister and her clan for a while. My sister introduced this friend of her's to Aisah and me. The guy really looked like Paul Twohill, only way better..hah. He had pale porcelain skin with the jet black hair like FFTL's frontman. We saw Ingride. I thought the screaming was better than the singing. Aisah and I got in the Arena. It was really great. Aisah and I enjoyed ourselves. Then, we got hungry and thirsty. While searching for Umairah we bumped into Iza and my sister. We stole some fries and gulped down some of their cokes. Got into the Arena again and this time we saw Ariff. Aisah shouted his name a few times and I was like jumping and waving because we're short and we were blocked by the tall people infront. He didn't see us until his friend pointed at us. And so, we joined Ariff and his friends. They're so hilarious.. I clung on to Aisah and held on to Ariff when the moshing began. It was so terrific. Then, I saw Ash who was very hyper. He was with us for a while. He asked me where's Azizi, so I told him that Azizi's schooling. I could tell that Aisah was really having the time of her life..heh. The security was much more tighter. Tighter than the last year. We parted from Ariff and his clan after love me butch had performed. Luckily, Aisah and I managed to catch the last train home.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

The night before, I was mesagging Fin..then, he reminded me not to go to school late. Somehow, he made it seem more like a joke rather than a reminder. So, I told him, make sure you don't wake up late..hah. True enough, I went to school late this morning and Fin also woke up late..hahah. Maths Paper2 was a real shocker to me. The first question was already an eye opener. I didn't know how to do it and I didn't get to finish the last three questions worth 1 mark each which I knew that I'll be able to score. Sigh. I've done this wrong, it's too far gone..these sheets tell of regret. Chemistry was alright I guess..It could've been easier if I were to study more harder for it.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Followed Aisah and her family to Fort Canning Park for this "konsert islam". My mom was supposed to go but then she has no one to go with and there's only one ticket. So, she told me to go there with Aisah and record the doa and zikir for her. I went for the sake of my mom plus she told me that I could stay over at Aisah's to catch the soccer match between Germany and Portugal. Watched Dora the Explorer in the car with Aisah's adorable yet noisy siblings.hah. When we finally reached there, the place was filled with people, young and old. We sat at the open space where they provided a huge mat for us to settle down. The place was quite eerie looking and yet..it somehow, gave me a sense of tranquility. With the presence of the serene sky filled with moving cottony clouds which masks the sight of the beautiful moon upon feeling the breeze blowing softly against my cheeks, made me think of sweets. If only he was there, at that very moment. We could be the witness of this happenstance. With his head against my lap, I could stroke his wavy hair gently with great cautious whereas my other hand would intertwine with his; resting them on his chest where I could feel his heartbeat racing, portraying the undying affection. I would then, bend closer to him and whisper in his ear that there is no other, besides him. Moving on, we stopped to a few places before going to Aisah's house. Her mom bought murtabak and such. Aisah slept in the car while I was trying to stay awake. At her house, we ate murtabak and roti nan. I played with her little sister for a while then went to sleep to preserve some energy before the match starts in an hour's time. Right before that, Aisah and I have set the alarm to 2.30am. Aisah woke me up..it was already 5 plus. We both missed the match..hurr. We only get to see the fireworks and the Germany fans cheering. Slengerbacins..But, I'm really really glad Germany won..woohoo! Both of us went to bed again then woke up around 8 plus because Aisah had to go for her religious class and I had to go home because my mom needs her handphone before she goes off to work.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Woke up at about 3 in the morning to do maths. When I was about to reach school, the sky was pretty dark and gloomy. The weather was nice and chilly. It was a perfect distraction that made me feel sleepy. During the social studies exam, I really felt like falling asleep. I wasn't sure what I wrote in the paper. Towards the end, I just scribbled what I could think of. I started with section B first then section A. I spent too much on section B that I didn't have the time to finish the last question of section A. During the 45mins break, Aisah and I went to our usual hot spot to revise some maths. I didn't leave any blanks for maths paper1 but I doubt that I'll be able to pass it. Thought of mugging for history at the woodlands library but then I fell asleep at home and was too lethargic to go. Planned of mugging at the staircase because at home, there's just too many distractions. Ohh yeah..I wanted to sleep yesterday night but then I felt like hearing Azi's voice before going to bed. So,I called him. Didn't mean to wake him up. I didn't know he was asleep in the first place ): .I think I smiled in my sleep yesterday..hah.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

I managed to catch the match between Germany and Italy. The score was still nil to nil after half-time. Italy finally, scored 2 goals in the last 2-3 mins of the extra-time. I was really hoping to see the penalty shoot out but after Italy scored their first goal..I knew that there wouldn't be a penalty shoot-out. The German team and their supporters were so disappointed and devastated. Tears streamed down their cheeks, unleashing their expression of agony. I felt like crying when I saw Ballack wept on the screen. I reached school earlier than usual. Firdaus and Nisham grinned and chuckled at me..I was like wtf. I hope Italy lose their next match..muahahah. Zakiah's very irritating. She kept bugging me, extolling upon Italy's triumph. Oh yeah..today's Aisah's birthday. I didn't give her anything because I'm currently broke. Stayed back after school for maths clinic for a while. At 5pm, I waited for Kaisah and Zakiah at the woodlands library. I thought of doing something like this; each of us will read a different section of what we have to study then, explain them. So, this way we would have at least a brief idea of what that certain section is about. I'm not sure whether this method would work, I'm trying it out. Mid year exam starts tomorrow. First off, is social studies and maths paper1.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

I don't feel like going to school today. But then, when I went to check on today's timetable..there's so many subjects that I can't afford to miss like maths, chemistry and history. So, I just stuffed my socks in my school bag (I tend to do that when I'm late) and dragged both of my feet out of the house. Aisah and I wore our socks before Mdm Kaur came to class. Overall, school was so-so I guess. Actually, there was supposed to be a maths test on Paper2 but Mdm Wong decided to cancel it and use that time to explain the answers or questions that we were unsure of. I felt that she was going too fast. Ariff and Zakiah thought so too..Ariff was so hilarious. Aisah and I laughed until we lose focus on what Mdm Wong was talking about..hah. During CDP, we had to go to the hall for a talk on self-grooming. The person showed us the do's and don't 's on self-grooming. Come to think of it, I always go to school with tousled hair and filthy shoes. I don't quite care about self-grooming now. I mean..I used to be self-conscious when I was in lower secondary, had low self-esteem and confidence. Moreover, I care what others think about me. Then one day, someone told me, why care what others think about you? And that got me thinking... Moving on, everyone in class talks about soccer. When's the next match? Who versus who? Who scored in the penalty? Who's got a red card? At times, I do feel a bit irritated. However, I have to admit that I do watch the World Cup but with all these fuss, I tend to get annoyed, you see. Anyway, there's a match between Germany and Italy at 3am today. The boys in my class knew that I'm on Germany's side.
During physics;
Firdaus: Iznur!Hari ni Germany lawan Italy kan..?
Me: Huh?aah..*looking blur as always*
Firdaus: Nanti versus Nisham.Die support Italy..
Nisham looked at me and smiled.
Me: Oh heh..
Then, I turned away to carry on with my work..hah.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storey
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make to it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la it is so...it is so..

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la la life wonderful
Ha la la la la la la life it is...so wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

This is the lyric to "Life is Wonderful" by Jason Mraz. I'm currently addicted to this song. It's very soothing and makes me calm. And it also makes me feel as though life is very precious and it should not be taken for granted.